today

Today is one of those days. I have sprung a leak, and I am about to pop.

I am going to make it publicly known that yes, I have four kids, AND yes, I do work, and YES I am going to go to school part time.

Do you think I didn't know that?

For some reason I think people wonder about my mind. They may find I am too far gone to make a 'rational' (almost spelled that rashional) decision. Oddly enough I have thought long and hard about going to school and how this may affect my family, including the kids, positive or negative. There is something that I feel empowered to say, sort of like when they called Tyra Banks "America's next top waddle" or Jennifer Love Hewitt a blubber, I know what free agency is, do you? That is where WE as individuals have the opportunity to make a CHOICE for our selves. I asked a friend, his response to what free agency is was this "free agency to me is being my own person who makes my own decisions" and I would like to add, suffer the consequences to those decisions. To that I may toast this: if someone makes a decision to cut off their finger, it may be wise to take them aside and help them to thoughtfully consider this rash decision. But if someone says, I am going to better my life and take pole dancing classes (just an example) be supportive, even if you don't agree with that particular decision, what is it really going to hurt you? Do you have to ask "why?", "how?" & of course, the always dooming "now?"